January Favorites!

I love trying different things, so thought I'd write a blog about things that I am absolutely loving at the moment!

Mango Hand Cream - The Body Shop £4

My best friend bought this for me in a Body Shop set for Christmas, it smells absolutely divine and leaves your hands feeling really soft, the scent stays for ages too, so your hands smell amazing for hours.












Smoky Poppy Shower Gel - £2 - The Body Shop

I am completely and 100% addicted to the Smoky Poppy Range from The Body Shop. It's Limited Edition, so of course I had to buy as much as possible before it all got sold out. It's got rather a unique smell, if you like floral scents, this will be right up your street! You don't need much either, a little bit goes a long way! If you want to try this, I highly recommend you get their fast as it might be sold out soon!

Smoky Poppy Body Scrub - £6.50 - The Body Shop



I've lost count the number of times I have bought this particular body scrub, it smells amazing and leaves your skin feeling soft! I am definitely topping up more on this when I have the chance, as it's almost all gone!!!!

Smoky Poppy Bath Bombs - £6 - The Body Shop

These are wonderful, sound a little pricey I know. I thought there was only 4 bath bombs inside, but there are in fact, 6 inside, as the bath bombs come separated in half. If you love the Smoky Poppy scent you will really love these, they make the water go a lovely lilac colour and leave the bath smelling lovely! If you fancy treating yourself, highly recommend!

















The Maze Runner Series - £15.19 - Amazon




It's taken me ages to finally getting round to reading this series! I am absolutely loving it, I am definitely recommend reading the books before you watch the films though! If you loved The Hunger Games, you are gonna love this series by James Dashner!

Imperial Leather Signature Bath Soak - £2 - Tesco's

I've very recently tried this bubble bath, it smells absolutely amazing and leaves your bath water a lovely colour! Imperial Leather do a wonderful range of bubble baths, definitely check them out for a night of luxury!

Must see movie! The Revenant!

If your looking for a great film to see this weekend, I highly recommend "The Revenant" starring Leonardo Dicaprio! By far one of the best films he's ever made. Thrilling and spectacular, this is an absolute must watch for any fan of Leonardo Dicaprio!

What's it like being Dyslexic?

Dyslexia is a word used rather frequently now, in schools, work, life in general. However the problem arises when people get the wrong misconception of what it really means to be Dyslexic. The question that people ask me the most is "So your Dyslexic, so you write letters backwards then and can't read very well?" I'm sorry, but it honestly couldn't be further from the truth. Many Dyslexics will tell you that they do not write letters backwards and that they love reading, very much like myself. I can easily go through a book within 2-3 days, sometimes less, depending on what else I'm doing.

I've never found anything easy, not because I'm stupid, because I see things differently. There is a reason Dyslexics joke that they feel they have been dropped off on the wrong planet, because you quite literally do feel like you have. Nothing makes sense. Why do they want me to write a written method in Maths when I can work it out in my head? Why does it take me a day to read a book written on yellow paper but a month to read a book written on white paper? Why can I remember all the numbers for my bank details off the top of my head but forget my dentist appointment, despite having it written down somewhere? Every Dyslexic is different, but most will tell you they remember the most obscure things.

Most Dyslexics will also tell you that they struggle to concentrate properly most of the time. Personally it's a big issue! I'm the annoying person in front of you at the cinema who can't sit still, the movie is awesome...I just can't sit still. I'm the driver out of my group of friends that apparently looks tense when driving, you would be too if you were driving and all your brain is telling you is "Ooooh look a helicopter, pretty sunset, I like this song...crap what's the speed limit down here again, I've missed the sign" at the same time, all i'm desperately trying to  do is concentrate on the road and make sure I'm doing the correct speed, I couldn't care less about a helicopter, or whether the sun is setting, but my brain thinks otherwise.

Dyslexia seems to get picked up on very late in schools, even now. The longer you leave a diagnosis the harder it gets for that child, because they are not getting the correct help that they need, they aren't being encouraged to work things out their way, instead they are being shown a way that is alien to them. Things need to change, A student may well do better in their exams, because you've noticed Dyslexia at a young age and had a diagnosis done. Please don't assume someone isn't Dyslexic because they don't write back to front or the words don't jump about, we're all different, in your class, your Dyslexic student might be the shyest girl/boy in the room, they also might be the brightest person in the room. Dyslexia does not mean stupid/unintelligent/dumb/retarded. Please don't pigeon hole us, we're just like everyone else, all we do is see things a bit differently.

Coping with loss!

Firstly, this blog isn't intended to make anyone upset, although I respect for some it may be hard to read, your not alone though, we're all in this together, trying to fight MND! I want people to know how devastating this disease is, WE NEED TO FIND A CURE!

Watching someone die of Motor Neurone Disease is traumatic. I'm angry, it's taken someone I love with all my heart away from me, taken everything he ever cared about away from him, his job, his farm, his independence...his life. What did he do to deserve this? Why not a murderer, someone that deserves to rot in hell!  I'm coping better then I was, I had traumatic nightmares for 16 weeks after my dad died, every single night without fail. I couldn't concentrate on work, no matter how hard I tried, I'm forever thankful to a very understanding group of people that I can call my second family, my family away from home for their support through those hard few months, whilst I was at work.

I stopped being a DJ, I couldn't bare the thought of having to perform and be happy for an audience when my heart was being torn apart inside. The stress of someone kicking off, being rude to me, because they couldn't have their favorite song! It honestly didn't matter anymore, making sure my mum was okay, mattered. That I was there for her, whenever she needed me, Making sure my sister was okay up in Brighton with her fiance mattered and that my brother and his wife were alright.

Watching someone die to Motor Neurone Disease, opened my eyes, I had no right to moan about anything anymore, be scared of anything. I was lucky to be alive, to be able to enjoy my food, do the things I loved, be independent. I am so thankful for everything I have and everyone that is in my life. We're human, of course we're going to moan, get angry, get scared, but I try to keep it to a minimum because I know how lucky I am.

You don't ever learn to cope with the loss of a loved one, it gets easier, but it takes time. We're still waiting for the day, when we feel like we can cope. I'm waiting for the day, when I don't wake up 1--12 times a night, because psychologically I'm grieving. The day I can return to Djing and put on a happy face. It'll come, but it'll take time.

Everyday is precious!

I'm not particularly sure why I am writing a blog, I guess I wanted to share my life stories. Perhaps when you read this, you might understand the way I see the world, and why I see it that way? An awful lot has happened this year, I can't keep up with my life most of the time, remember what day it is, what I'm supposed to be doing. Losing a loved one does strange things to you!

Its odd how you remember specific things isn't it? The phone call my mum had to make to me one bank holiday Monday was just that, my mum had phoned to tell me that my step-dad had been diagnosed with Motor Neurone Disease, and that it was terminal. Your initial reaction is shock, why Dad? Why someone so innocent and beautiful inside and out, why someone who has been nothing but hard working, loyal, kind and generous all his life? Why not someone who deserves to suffer and rot in hell? As the months went on, I saw someone go from living his life to the full, to not being able to eat a real meal anymore. I cannot express how heartbreaking it is to watch someone you love, not being able to enjoy their favorite meal anymore, over fear they may choke. That being said, I also can't express how important it is that if you have the chance, take a First Aid Course, you  take it, you may well just save someone's life. One afternoon, I believe I did just that.

My dad was doing his usual, he'd managed a tiny bit of food at dinner and was enjoying a cup of hot water, whilst reading the newspaper, catching up on his diary. My mum had popped over to our new house in preparation for us moving in, in a few weeks time and that she wouldn't be particularly long, maybe 30 minutes or so and could I keep an eye on dad. Fear hit me, what if something happens? I explained to my dad that I would keep my bedroom door open and that I would keep my headphones off, so if something were to happen I'd be there for him. He did his usual "I'll be alright" so up I go, 5 minutes later, I can hear choking, I've never been so terrified in all my life. Your initial reaction is to be scared, there was really no time for that, my dad was scared and he needed me fast. All I can see in front of me is my First Aid Instructor explaining to me how you help someone who is choking/got something stuck in their throat, this wasn't practice, this was real. Trying to keep someone calm when you are on the verge of crying is one of the hardest things you can do, as to not put fear in them. I believe I saved my dad's life that day and I believe I helped him save his life too by getting him to relax enough that his muscles relaxed for him to breathe clearly until another attack happened. I remember my dad later telling my mum how brave he thought I had been and how thankful he was, I mean this, I'd do if for anyone there is no question about it.

I'm thankful to my dad, due to this experience, I'd decided I wanted to do a charity Skydive for Motor Neurone Disease, they do one every June called Jumpfest. I'd always wanted to do a Skydive so figured doing it for charity was the best of both worlds. I managed to raise over £800 for Motor Neurone Disease, if you donated and continue to donate to this cause, I am so thankful, it means the world, help us fight! People quite often say to me "Your crazy, why would you jump from 10,000ft?, wasn't it scary?" There are many reasons why I wasn't scared that day, one being that, it was a beautiful day, blue sky, all week it was rainy and cloudy and on the day I jumped it was blue sky until the moment I was on the ground again, my instructors told me we were lucky as the wind was about to change (you can't jump anything over 24mph as it's too dangerous), two jumping from a plane isn't scary, I had no right to be scared, imagining what my dad must of gone through everyday when he was trying to deal with Motor Neurone Disease, the fear of choking, falling over because your legs give way underneath you, your whole life is ripped from you, fear of crying because you may choke on your tears. My dad was a remarkable man and was truly inspiring! I'm not scared of anything anymore, I understood what fear was, watching what this disease does to people. When someone can still smile and laugh when they are dealing with this awful disease, it doesn't make them weak, it makes them a hero!

There's a reason why I want to read so many books, try so many foods, watch some many movies, travel to every part of the globe, jump from planes, study loads of subjects, because I know how precious life is, it can be taken in an instant. I know it's not always easy but try and be thankful for everything you have, because some people have it all taken away from them and it's heartbreaking. I'm angry at this disease, I'm determined to find a cure in my lifetime!